LET ME GO, LET ME BREATHE!

MOOD- GLOOMY

‘Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take pleasure in other people’s sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes’

I will get another chance at it I know, it just depends whether I will take that chance or not. You won’t ever know me like the way you used to, because we lost our way; we are never finding it again. I am far away, a place where you can’t possibly reach. Let me go, let me breathe.

Feeling good never caused pain, but this pain is a different kind of pain. It gives me pleasure, it makes me feel alive. The pain has subsided, I don’t even feel it anymore but I know it exists. The ironical part is that I do feel the pain but I am somewhere living peacefully and I feel happiness inside of me. I am just stuck in turmoil. I am confused.

I know what we were, I know what we can be if I give a chance but I won’t. You are a part of the past, the part I have given up on and I don’t have the strength to feel like that again. If we wanted, we could have had a smooth ride home but we chose to kill each other, wanted to make each other a part of the past. We think we can start afresh, start from a new page and we both want that. But the tragedy is that we also know somewhere that we can’t. I know you haven’t forgotten just like I haven’t, the hard part is not forgetting it, the hard part is facing it.

Don’t look at me like that, no! Don’t smile at me like that. I would melt away in your sweet words, I would trust you again and you would make me weak again. Don’t talk to me, don’t tell me how much you miss me, don’t tell me you remember everything because we can’t undo what has already happened and we don’t a stand a chance against the will of the nature. We can’t fight the fate, no! We shouldn’t be flippant with our hearts.

I am not going to lie, but I don’t remember anything that we shared or we had, I don’t remember the little things that made us happy. When you tell me about them I feel confused like I had a memory loss, like those memories were something I never lived. I know the day I remember I am going to be hurt just like I was; I don’t want the pain anymore. I am a coward or maybe selfish asking for my happiness. We can’t repeat the same mistake over and over again.

All that I’m asking for is for you to cut that last string which still binds us. Let me go and let me breathe. I can smell freedom already but you are still adamant not to let me go. You have to be selfless for once in your life, make me go, make me happy. If you truly love me you will understand what I say. You will understand that it is time that we both give each other a chance to live peacefully.

I know you, I can see inside you, I know you will let me go and I also know that somewhere deep down you will hope for us to come across each other someday. But I will know that once you let me loose I will never turn back, never ever think about you. I will move on.

I will be gone and I will breathe.

IT IS WHAT IT IS

MOOD- MUSICAL

'Today I have no thoughts, today I just want to sit quietly and listen to music that plays in my ears. Somewhere I have lost myself, the pain so indispensable inside, I am bleeding and I can’t stop. One day I’ll wake up and see the sunshine finally falling on my face and you would be standing in front of me smiling'

I give you the lyrics of the song ‘it is what it is’ by ‘lifehouse’. We have felt like this way at some point in our lives. Today i feel this way.


'I was only looking for a shortcut home
But it’s complicated
So complicated
Somewhere in this city is a road I know
Where we could make it
But maybe there’s no making it now

Too long we’ve been denying
Now we’re both tired of trying
We hit a wall and we can’t get over it
Nothing to relive
It’s water under the bridge
You said it, I get it
I guess it is what it is

I was only trying to bury the pain
But I made you cry and I can’t stop the crying
Was only trying to save me
But I lost you again
Now there’s only lying
Wish I could say it’s only me

Too long we’ve been denying
Now we’re both tired of trying
We hit a wall and we can’t get over it
Nothing to relive
It’s water under the bridge
You said it, I get it
I guess it is what it is

Here it comes ready or not
We both found out it’s not how we thought
That it would be, how it would be
If the time could turn us around
What once was lost may be found
For you and me, for you and me

Too long we’ve been denying
Now we’re both tired of trying
We hit a wall and we can’t get over it
Nothing to relive
It’s water under the bridge
You said it, I get it
I guess it is what it is

I was only looking for a shortcut home
But it’s complicated
So complicated'

CITY OF BLINDING LIGHTS

Mood- loving


‘We all have dreams, some come true and some break, we are sad when they break but then we make new dreams. When you are young everything seems like the end of the world but it’s not, it’s just the beginning’

Dreams are something which everyone has, we make some and we break some. We are all stuck in our monotonous lives, searching for something exciting. In a hope of finding it, we reach the city of blinding lights, the city where dreams are fulfilled, the city where everyone has a dream. You reach there and you don’t even realize when you lose your dream, lose yourself in that crowd. Then you just become any other person of that city, of that dream world. One thing you learn is not to give up on your dreams, even if it takes years. Patience is a virtue not everyone holds and yet the most successful people have it, because patience is all it takes to reach your destiny, your dream!


In the fast paced life of the city, in your own quest to fulfil your dream, you forget about yourself, you forget what you have become. All you want to do is be a part of the race, be the one to reach first there. When you’re running too fast, you can see your dream clearly and close, but you lose the track of time, the dream gets farther away. If you choose to have a steady pace, the dream, the destiny maybe blur but it is closer than you can think.


Sometimes in this rat race, there is no place for a person who follows his heart but his mind. Mind maybe rational, but heart knows what it wants. In the end you reach the place where your heart wanted to take you. You might regret decisions taken by mind, but you will never regret decisions taken by heart, even if you fail you make peace with it sooner or later and you think to yourself that you came to live a story which is just yours and no one else’s. It’s all about being at the right place at the right time.


To have a dream is easy but to make your way to that dream one needs courage, one needs to take a leap with closed eyes. But we choose to be safe, take a safer road, the safer road is the hardest, you are stuck in there thinking whether it was the right thing to do or not and by the time you decide to finally follow your heart, it is too late. It is too late to go back. It takes courage to give up on the safe path and start following your heart. But if following your heart is what keeps you happy, then do it. Maybe it’s late but what you get when you follow your heart makes it all worthwhile. I do believe that anything is possible. I do believe that we make our own destiny but I also believe that if you are meant to live your dream, no matter what you will get to live it.


So, stop thinking so much, get lost in the neon glow of the city of blinding lights, close your eyes, feel the wind in your face, imagine the dream in your mind and smile. Make a new dream and follow it.